lots happening...

So, i thought my life was interesting enough before. never take a curse as a joke. someone wished on me to always have an interesting good ting it wasn't an oriental person that cursed me that way or i might be dead now. lol! all joking aside its been a strange few months. ive gone from having walking pneumonia to labyrinthitis, and losing weight then gaining it all back when i got sick because of sleeping all the time. i hate when im sick all the time. it bothers me and ruins my winter. cos how can someone enjoy an entirely cold winter if they're sick and asleep all the time? hmmm?

So,here i am just getting better and the sun is starting to come out and be out more. yay! i love it when the change of season is well reflected. we're already regaining sunlight from the winter. so im on the upswing i guess. feeling better, noticing that the sun is out more, and its getting cold as fudge wihtout chocolate out there. but ya know that february is the coldest month of the year so we'll get thru it. its just gonna take some time.

i feel like my sons are missing a lot by not spending much time with me.. but its not that they are missing me its that.. i dont know, again i have no clue what im trying to say. i miss my older son and wish he would just get a life and get back to talking to me already. my younger son comes and sees me and spends time with me. that makes a big difference in my life. it makes me feel important which is really cool and he thinks im cool even though im a geek. i love my son especially for that. my older son i love him but its the waiting kinda love. its not different just tryingg to be patient while he 'finds himself' which i hope he does real soon. but us moms have to wait and wait and wait sometimes. anyway thats all for now. i hope im not as muddled as i feel right now. thanks for listening.

kloi