so life is interesting...

if someone quotes the chinese proverb to you "may your life ever be interesting," turn around and shoot them in the foot with a real gun. then tell them you dont believe in the majic of proverbs and you curse them with eternal boils on their buttocks. (snort!!!)

at the moment i hate my life but only a little bit. i had an very interesting night. spent most of it in the emergency room. it started out a couple days ago i think. i had an allergic reaction to freshly mown grass in the evening, then had it again in the morning when someone on the other side of me mowed their grass damit! so i paid no attention to it . and took benadryl. woke up yesterday wiht a migraine and went back to sleep til after 3pm. then waited til 7 for my son to show up. then went to my honey's house and we started having fun and i got too excited and had a major asthma attack. it sucked bigtime and now my boyfriend wont call me back so i think i scared him off damit. i am so frustrated now. sometimes i hate when things like asthma and other sicknesses interrupt. it sucks. anyway thats it for now. at least my knitting is going well if nothing else is.

love yas

kloi

well now ive worked on my profile on here and it looks better already. at the moment im contemplating my navel hair as i decide whether or not to knit some more tonight. i have had a rather hard day. a friend of mine took my dog for a walk and it took too long so i became anxious about it. so from now on we will set time limits and i will work on staying calm til they get back - if i let him walk her again. when im home i want her here with me cos she helps me stay calm and whatnot. shes my working dog, she helps me stay calm and feel protected so her not being with me at home makes me feel real hairy and panicky and whatnot. at least i learned a lesson from this.

so what else makes life interesting, you wonder? life itself. i have post traumatic stress disorder and multiple personality disorder and earlier tonight a memory popped up from when i was a child. ya know, a flash-back. damn if i didnt nearly have a cow at the time. its gotten better since then but it really hurt when it first happened. i really do hate when memories pop up unbidden like that. it creates all kinds of emotional waves and whatnot, but i feel much better now (quote from harry's father from the show night court). anyway thats all for now. y'all have a good day now y'hear?.

kloi

busy life...

been real busy with knitting and fighting off pain in my life, lately. i have fibromyalgia and arthritis so add the two together and you have one screaming pain after another. it drives me crazy. not that im whining or anything, but im whining. lol. anyway thats pretty much it for now. knitting and pain issues. argh, life can suck it out of you sometimes.

busy right now...

life's been a bit busy lately. im having relationship issues and also children issues. my children are teens so you KNOW what im going thru if you have some. if not, ces la vi, not much to keep me up at night except that my apartment has been broken into 3 times in the last month. its weird and scary at times but better now that ive got all the windows either locked or blocked shut. it makes me feel safer that ihave them blocked shut now. its a good thing.

my knitting is keeping me busy also so its not only the kids and the men in my life although they can be said to both be the same thing. heh. since my boys are teens and trouble too. heh. anyway im done for now. have a great day.

kloi

im a doof

somehow i made two different blogs and didnt know i did that. i want to delete teh other one but dont know hwo to do that either. im having a hard time with a lot of things tonight. mostly the fact i wanna kick my son in the shin. i'll get over that too. i can't believe its almost mother's day again. so much is happening lately with my sons and family issues and i dont know what to do anymore. i wish i knew what to do and how to do it without driving myself insane. anyway ta for now this is my second post. wheeee!

my first post

hmmm what to say? can't think a lot today, ive been up all night. got woke up about midnight and haven't been back to sleep since then. got too much sleep yesterday. been knitting like a crazy person lately, trying to finish one of the sweaters so i can send it off to its new owner and get on wiht other knitting. so much has been going on. last night somneone broke in here while i was asleep and robbed me of my laptop which i happenb to be on. dang i cant believe it! i didnt even wake up! argh. luckily my son was coming home at the time and caught the guy. he beat him up and got my laptop back otherwise i would be unable to log on. wow.

thank God and Goddess for my son and his friends.