well now ive worked on my profile on here and it looks better already. at the moment im contemplating my navel hair as i decide whether or not to knit some more tonight. i have had a rather hard day. a friend of mine took my dog for a walk and it took too long so i became anxious about it. so from now on we will set time limits and i will work on staying calm til they get back - if i let him walk her again. when im home i want her here with me cos she helps me stay calm and whatnot. shes my working dog, she helps me stay calm and feel protected so her not being with me at home makes me feel real hairy and panicky and whatnot. at least i learned a lesson from this.

so what else makes life interesting, you wonder? life itself. i have post traumatic stress disorder and multiple personality disorder and earlier tonight a memory popped up from when i was a child. ya know, a flash-back. damn if i didnt nearly have a cow at the time. its gotten better since then but it really hurt when it first happened. i really do hate when memories pop up unbidden like that. it creates all kinds of emotional waves and whatnot, but i feel much better now (quote from harry's father from the show night court). anyway thats all for now. y'all have a good day now y'hear?.

kloi