heh...

well so here i sit, learning some new words and taking care of my computer when it has problems with the v and whatnot. i had sticky keys and had to get help from hp. i have to figure out how soon my plan wears out so i can renew it before it goes bad. o man i forgot to change my email address or something. im getting frustrated with this situation. i can't find some information on my computer so im gonna go online and get it or someting. i dont know yet what im gonna do about it. we'll see. anyway things are fine right now i just want tings to go the way i want htem to go so i can do what i want when i want to. lol

thats it for now have a good day.

kloi

Cirque du Freak: The Vampire's Assistant

life is interesting...

im sitting here working on my knitting and reading. so far so good. hanging out with family and waiting for things to work and show up and whatnot. just hanging with family and getting along is a good thing. im gonna try to get up an go to group tomorrow. we'll see what happens with it. im trying anyway. and so far so good. im very excited about the fact i finished a sweater almost totally, recently. im kind of procrastinating on the rest of it. i dont know why. well anyway thats whats going on this week. oi the life i have. ta for now

frustrated

so its been a while since i wrote on here. ive been busy being sick with walking pneumonia and having obstinant children around. so now im sitting here waiting for my son to come back and give me some money. its very hard for me to figure out whats trustable to do with him or not.

i have to admit he made me eat my words so i had to redo this part of the post cos he came back with change yay for both him and me. i love my son and i love it when he does the right thing. it makes such a difference in my life. anyway ta for now thanks for listening.

so life is interesting...

if someone quotes the chinese proverb to you "may your life ever be interesting," turn around and shoot them in the foot with a real gun. then tell them you dont believe in the majic of proverbs and you curse them with eternal boils on their buttocks. (snort!!!)

at the moment i hate my life but only a little bit. i had an very interesting night. spent most of it in the emergency room. it started out a couple days ago i think. i had an allergic reaction to freshly mown grass in the evening, then had it again in the morning when someone on the other side of me mowed their grass damit! so i paid no attention to it . and took benadryl. woke up yesterday wiht a migraine and went back to sleep til after 3pm. then waited til 7 for my son to show up. then went to my honey's house and we started having fun and i got too excited and had a major asthma attack. it sucked bigtime and now my boyfriend wont call me back so i think i scared him off damit. i am so frustrated now. sometimes i hate when things like asthma and other sicknesses interrupt. it sucks. anyway thats it for now. at least my knitting is going well if nothing else is.

love yas

kloi

well now ive worked on my profile on here and it looks better already. at the moment im contemplating my navel hair as i decide whether or not to knit some more tonight. i have had a rather hard day. a friend of mine took my dog for a walk and it took too long so i became anxious about it. so from now on we will set time limits and i will work on staying calm til they get back - if i let him walk her again. when im home i want her here with me cos she helps me stay calm and whatnot. shes my working dog, she helps me stay calm and feel protected so her not being with me at home makes me feel real hairy and panicky and whatnot. at least i learned a lesson from this.

so what else makes life interesting, you wonder? life itself. i have post traumatic stress disorder and multiple personality disorder and earlier tonight a memory popped up from when i was a child. ya know, a flash-back. damn if i didnt nearly have a cow at the time. its gotten better since then but it really hurt when it first happened. i really do hate when memories pop up unbidden like that. it creates all kinds of emotional waves and whatnot, but i feel much better now (quote from harry's father from the show night court). anyway thats all for now. y'all have a good day now y'hear?.

kloi

busy life...

been real busy with knitting and fighting off pain in my life, lately. i have fibromyalgia and arthritis so add the two together and you have one screaming pain after another. it drives me crazy. not that im whining or anything, but im whining. lol. anyway thats pretty much it for now. knitting and pain issues. argh, life can suck it out of you sometimes.