so how things going y'all? im hanging out thinking of knitting and wanting to hurry up and finish what i started so it will be done and out of my hair. been thinking about my mother a lot this week. and im angry at her for dying.. and miss her so much at the same time. i dont get it; this constant push-me-pull-you attitude i seem to have wiht my family. its so weird, so crazy, insane that it makes me nuts. it seems sometimes im just plain at war with myself. you know it comes down ot that one saying that threw me the first time i heard it.
'i hate you, dont leave me!'
somehow it's all summed up by that one statement. its also the title of a book about broken relationships... broken marriages, really. but it fits what im going thru too. i definitely had a broken relationship with my mother. anyway thats whats up right now, grief and anger are fighting for my attention when im tryign to read, knit and watch movies all at the same time. gotta love being me.
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- i think im on the fence as to whether im old fashioned or just open and crazy.
Oh man, I so get this. Push me pull you for sure. I cycle between grief, anger, sadness, about my mom. Tough stuff.
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