knitting is fun and restful...

i think im getting close to the end of this sweater ive been working on for over a year. im very excited about almost being done. im about on the opening of the front of the sweater which is the last step til the hood. woohoo im so excited about this. if you wanna view past pictures of it go to www.ravelry.com/people/dragonturtle and look at my projects. its the gray on black sweater on there. anyway im just so excited to almost be done with it woot! its good. tis great, its fun and relaxing too yay!

life happens...

so much is going on in my life right now because of writing about my childhood. i hate the memories it brings up. some of the things that have come up are like a physical blow when i remember what happened. i was writing last night about being bitten by a dog that belonged to one of my babysitters when i was a child. it was physically painful to write about and today im kinda paying for it. ive been writing a lot and the more i write the more stressed out i get. i just have to get thru this. its so difficult to remember the things and people that caused us such pain as children. its just not right. i frickin hate the things that people did to us as children. it sucked.

lots happening...

So, i thought my life was interesting enough before. never take a curse as a joke. someone wished on me to always have an interesting good ting it wasn't an oriental person that cursed me that way or i might be dead now. lol! all joking aside its been a strange few months. ive gone from having walking pneumonia to labyrinthitis, and losing weight then gaining it all back when i got sick because of sleeping all the time. i hate when im sick all the time. it bothers me and ruins my winter. cos how can someone enjoy an entirely cold winter if they're sick and asleep all the time? hmmm?

So,here i am just getting better and the sun is starting to come out and be out more. yay! i love it when the change of season is well reflected. we're already regaining sunlight from the winter. so im on the upswing i guess. feeling better, noticing that the sun is out more, and its getting cold as fudge wihtout chocolate out there. but ya know that february is the coldest month of the year so we'll get thru it. its just gonna take some time.

i feel like my sons are missing a lot by not spending much time with me.. but its not that they are missing me its that.. i dont know, again i have no clue what im trying to say. i miss my older son and wish he would just get a life and get back to talking to me already. my younger son comes and sees me and spends time with me. that makes a big difference in my life. it makes me feel important which is really cool and he thinks im cool even though im a geek. i love my son especially for that. my older son i love him but its the waiting kinda love. its not different just tryingg to be patient while he 'finds himself' which i hope he does real soon. but us moms have to wait and wait and wait sometimes. anyway thats all for now. i hope im not as muddled as i feel right now. thanks for listening.

kloi

well there things are...

so hi there this is yet another blog post. i dont know about you but ive had an interesting time with my family. my older son doesnt talk to me, my younger son doesnt wanna hang out with me. im frustrated by it all and not sure how to deal. sometimes things go really well, others it just hits the floor with a large boom. was working on the view of my blog and whatnot and finally added how much i knitted this month. it seemed like a lot more than i did so i looked it up and fixed the dates to the right dates. now its better. i dont know. im not doing anything spectacular but i think im hoping i'll be done with this sweater im working on by the end of the year.... but thats like, 4 days from now o my! i just have to finish the sleeves and attach them which will take a bunch more time than 4 days. so next year i suppose. thats 5 days away hehehehehe. cool!

wow two posts in a week!

so how y'all doing? im goofing off. tinking of knitting. i cant seem to stop. lol. knitting is my calming tool and my soothing tool other htan my pets. i have cats and a dog. used to have a ferret too and am thinking of getting another one. im kind of up in the air. do i want a ferret or a cavie? i love me some guinnea pigs loveemlovemlovem!!! anyhway thats all for now. i need another baby in the house. i need someone to take care of more i think. anyway ta for now.

kloi

dang i just filled this out then the program crashed. im angry and tired and i dont know why but my ire seems ot be up for no apparent reason. everyone needs someting and im tired of being the one that is stuck with the left overs. im just so tired right now. waiting for stuff to kick in so i wont be mad anymore. anyway ta for now.

kloi

hi y'all

i dont know that anyone actually reads my posts so i dont post often. life has been kinda busy lately with thanksgiving and all going on. then theres the visitation stuff with my younger son. hes jumped from the frying pan into the fire at this point, but im hoping that he pulls himself out of it by doing what hes told soon. of course he is a teenager so theres no telling when exactly hes gonna get the message.

im currently working on a few projects at a time. the sweater im almost halfway done with finally! a scarf im working on is about a third the way done and a hair thingy. so there you have it. busy as i can be. plus all the reading and watching of movies i do. heh i love me some movies. so here goes for the pictures of my sweater:... o well they came out above my post so there you have it. my latest and hopefully last sweater for a while. good luck to us heheheheh.